Subconscious

on one hand i'm walking
 the way that i do
 lookin like i'm lost in thought
 but i'm lookin for you
 it's so subconscious
 the way that i feel
 too bad my subconscious life
 is the more real
 and i ain't in the best shape
 that i've ever been in
 but i know where i'm going
 and it ain't where i've been
 i know where i'm going
 and it ain't where i've been
 some kind of anxiety
 has gotten hold of my heart
 and i just wanna run home
 when i feel it start
 plastic bottles of water
 sealed windows, forced air
 gazillions of cell phones
 beaming through my hair
 and i ain't in the best shape
 that i've ever been in
 but i know where i'm going
 and it ain't where i've been
 i know where i'm going
 and it ain't where i've been
 i'm tossing and turning
 between sleepless dreams
 i'm poised on the edge of
 what it all means
 so i turn my back
 and i spread my arms wide
 and i let myself fall in
 way deep inside
 and i ain't in the best shape
 that i've ever been in
 but i know where i'm going
 and it ain't where i've been
 i know where i'm going
 and it ain't where i've been