Dilate

life used to be life-like
 now it's more like show biz
 i wake up in the night
 and i don't know where the bathroom is
 and i don't know what town i'm in
 or what sky i am under
 and i wake up in the darkness and i
 don't have the will anymore to wonder
 everyone has a skeleton
 and a closet to keep it in
 and you're mine
 every song has a you
 a you that the singer sings to
 and you're it this time
 baby, you're it this time
 when i need to wipe my face
 i use the back of my hand
 and i like to take up space
 just because i can
 and i use my dress
 to wipe up my drink
 i care less and less
 what people think
 and you are so lame
 you always disappoint me
 it's kinda like our running joke
 but it's really not funny
 i just want you to live up to
 the image of you i create
 i see you and i'm so unsatisfied
 i see you and i dilate
 so i'll walk the plank and i'll jump with a smile
 if i'm gonna go down
 i'm gonna do it with style
 and you won't see me surrender
 you won't hear me confess
 'cuz you've left me with nothing
 but i've worked with less
 and i learn every room long enough
 to make it to the door
 and then i hear it click shut behind me
 and every key works differently
 i forget every time
 and the forgetting defines me
 that's what defines me
 when i say you sucked my brain out
 the english translation
 is i am in love with you
 and it is no fun
 but i don't use words like love
 'cuz words like that don't matter
 but don't look so offended
 you know, you should be flattered
 i wake up in the night
 in some big hotel bed
 my hands grope for the light
 my hands grope for my head
 the world is my oyster
 the road is my home
 and i know that i'm better
 off alone