Guitar Crucifixion

I wrote these words when I was young
 Closed up the notebook, put it in a closet
 Let it sit for years collecting dust
 Internalized the negative, there's no point in trying this
 Dedicate your life to something sure
 If no one ever cares, then this is too much work
 I'm not sure if I can do this, but I'm sure that I can't not
 I'm sure that there is nothing else for me in this whole wide world
 So I'll carry this guitar to my own crucifixion
 The destruction of all of my real-world ambitions
 But it's something I have to do
 This is something I have to do
 A voice can make the world a better place
 I know because I have listened, God, how I've listened
 Drawn to that green and purple stage
 Singing alone in my bed, I'm sweating and I'm out of breath
 That's a good sign that I should care
 And if I died trying, that'd be a crown I'd proudly wear
 I'm not sure if I can do this, but I'm sure that I can't not
 I'm sure that there is nothing else for me in this whole wide world
 So I'll carry this guitar to my own crucifixion
 The destruction of all of my real-world ambitions
 But it's something I have to do
 This is something I have to do
 I don't care what you say, I'll make it on my own
 It's my turn now, you've had your day
 And I'm as strong as stone
 So I'll carry this guitar to my own crucifixion
 The destruction of all of my real-world ambitions
 But it's something I have to do
 This is something I have to do