Gatekeeper

I see you and I want to know you
 You're hot and you move and socialize with such grace
 Good at everything and you're well read too
 Got your shit together in a worthless place
 I watch and I daydream and I work up the courage
 And if you pushed me away, then it would devastate me
 If you don't think I'm smart, I'm not smart
 If you don't think I'm cool, I'm not cool
 If you want nothing to do with me
 There can be nothing in the world of which I am worthy
 When you finally condescend to meet me
 You're not giving me a lot but I've still got hope
 Every day's a new day when you might see
 What you never see, that I'm worth getting to know
 I laugh and tell stories when I know you're in earshot
 But every time it's worse when your interest never stirs
 If you don't think I'm smart, I'm not smart
 If you don't think I'm cool, I'm not cool
 If you want nothing to do with me
 There can be nothing in the world of which I am worthy
 But hell if I'm just going to let you be
 The gatekeeper to a world that doesn't want me
 And as I read the highbrow papers
 With my morning oatmeal like I've got some direction
 I think how there'd be nothing cooler
 Than for me to shrug off an inconsequential rejection
 And I don't care how far this cost has sunk, I'm done
 And I know that even if I can never attract you, I have value
 If you don't think I'm smart, you're not smart
 If you don't think I'm cool, you're not cool
 If you want nothing to do with me
 Then I'm the one who decides that I am worthy
 If you don't think I'm smart, you're not smart
 If you don't think I'm cool, you're not cool
 If you want nothing to do with me
 Then I'm the one who decides that I am worthy