Secrets

You know I hold these in
 And I take them for myself
 I'm covered in guilt
 But it's not my own
 There isn't any reason
 For me to feel like I'm dying
 I'm done with being afraid
 I'm done with lying
 And I am not an angel
 I'm more like Mona Lisa
 There's something hiding in me
 There's always something behind my smile
 And I know that I'm not perfect
 And maybe I am the court jester
 I'm the life of the party
 And I know too much about the court...
 I have these secrets that aren't my own
 So take this how you want to
 I'm not here to judge you
 I just want to be in love with you
 I just want to forget myself
 I want to just be ignorant
 Please take this pain away from me
 Down to the river and out to the sea
 Down to the river and out to the sea
 And I am not an angel
 I'm more like Mona Lisa
 There's something hiding in me
 There's always something behind my smile
 And I know that I'm not perfect
 Yeah, I am the court jester
 I'm the life of the party
 And I know too much about the court...
 I have these secrets that aren't my own
 It's too far to reach.
 But I'm too scared to let go.
 It's too close to ignore
 But I feel so far away now
 I'm crawling in the ceiling
 I'm scratching through the walls
 I'm trying to scream
 But my own hand is on my throat
 And I am not an angel
 I'm more like Mona Lisa
 There's something hiding in me
 There's always something behind my smile
 And I want to be like Venus
 To just bare it all and face the world
 But I'm tangled in these blankets
 I'm caught in between the lines
 I have these secrets that aren't my own