Now

Now
 Words Music by Allison Crowe
 As I walk this hall alone I wonder
 exactly why it is I'm leaving
 when there's nothing there for me to return to
 other than blind faith
 with a lack of believing
 and not to say that I have nothing
 I have everything and I am grateful
 but my head is trying to tell me something
 in this state of mind I feel so hateful
 and I don't understand
 and I'm not going to try to because
 now that I've seen it
 I couldn't walk away no
 even if I wanted to, yes
 now that I've seen it
 even though I'm leaving now
 every bit of me is still there
 well I am filled with a quiet resolution
 and questions posed without solution
 and in my realm of indecision
 finally I feel as though I can see something
 and though this beacons ever flashing
 Ii can't revisit without rehashing
 when I'm stuck in where I created fear
 I can not fix myself from here
 and I'm starting to understand
 at least in this state I believe something because
 now that I've seen it
 I couldn't walk away no
 even if I wanted to, yes
 now that I've seen it
 even though I'm leaving now
 every bit of me is still there
 the amount of times
 I've seen the edge
 of my own head
 is unrelenting
 the floor falls out
 and I am left with
 thoughts that move
 without consenting
 when all I want is peace
 and all I want to believe in
 is knowing without seeing
 and wanting without fear
 now that I've seen it
 I couldn't walk away no
 even if I wanted to, yes
 now that I've seen it
 even though I'm leaving now
 every bit of me is still there