Choose To Be

I wasn't expecting you
 you took me by surprise
 and I don't know if you can see it
 but it's right behind my eyes
 the answer to a question
 that I didn't know I'd asked
 and you know
 I didn't believe the tides
 could wash over me so fast
 and I've never
 seen this before
 and I've seen so much
 oh god I wonder what it takes
 to understand happiness
 and I
 am standing on the edge
 and I'm not afraid to fall
 I'm not dying
 I'm not hiding
 I am not anything at all
 but this time
 I choose to be happy
 you know I never believed
 that I could have something good
 didn't think that it was possible
 didn't think I could
 but now I'm kicking down these walls
 and you're tearing at these chains
 and I am starting to believe
 that I must be insane
 cause I've
 never seen you before
 and I've seen so much
 oh god I wonder what it takes
 to understand happiness
 and I
 am standing on the edge
 and I'm not afraid to fall
 I'm not dying
 I'm not hiding
 I am not anything at all
 but falling
 and I don't care where I land
 I'm falling
 and now I feel like I can stand
 cause this time
 I choose to be