Silence

I welcome shades of grey openly
 Anachronistic life unending
 Unnecessary strain compounding
 The failing cognition resounding
 I hate what I become
 when all I am is this
 And the weight collapses me
 as the numbness hits
 I fail again to break the fall
 I'm here all alone wondering how it all will end
 Fighting in vain as into the darkness I descend
 Waiting for light that I know I'll never see
 Desperate for silence once again
 Asphyxiating will incarnate
 The hope of amnesty discarded
 I hate what I have done to build the emptiness
 Into walls I can't unmake and the prison fits
 I fail again to break the fall
 (2x)
 I'm here all alone wondering how it all will end
 Fighting in vain as into the darkness I descend
 Waiting for light that I know I'll never see
 Desperate for silence once again
 Desperate for silence (I am) (2x)
 Desperate for silence once again