Simile of a Smile

I'll close my eyes through all of this screaming
 Tightened embrace locking horns with a demon
 Impossible to overcome
 When he tosses me into this grave
 I'll claw myself out, I'll find my way back into the rising sun
 Could you teach me how to smile?
 I swear I've been up all night
 Learning how not to cry and be satisfied to think everything is fine
 Swept up in the rising tide
 Steps forward toward where I came up
 Sunlight breaks through the pouring rain
 In this small town it's easy to get stuck
 If boards aren't put down to cover the ruts
 In a lion's mouth with dragon's breath
 Hold me closer, I'm scared to death
 Well, this boy's being redefined and my version of the truth is denied
 Could you teach me how to smile
 And say everything is all right
 Even if I know it's a lie?
 How can I be satisfied when I never learned how to fly?
 But crawling leaves me further behind
 Predispositions are realigned
 There was a time I tried to shine
 But never quite could find my light
 Before I was blinded by the bright white shining faces from on high
 Whispering in my ear trying not to pry
 Bury me now in the evening sky
 Reborn by the baptismal pills prescribed
 Teach me wrong from right
 How to tell the truth from lies
 To distinguish dreams for signs
 Be reborn from between these medical thighs
 Could you teach me how to smile?
 And maybe to feel worthwhile when the inches turn to miles?
 I want to be satisfied to think that I would have tried to return to the golden times
 And smile for a while in a foreign world