Jacob's Army

I woke up in a bed all covered in blood
 After a drunken night when it was filled with love
 Laid on the wet bathroom floor and the lights above me soared
 Scrawling my thoughts up and down the wall
 Sometimes, we don't feel like myself at all
 Why won't these dreams go away?
 I've got an army of the fallen sent to protect me
 They've tried to lynch me seven times, but I made it out alive
 By the grace of God I somehow survived
 Don't ask so surprised
 Drove three hours to a place I used to call home
 These hallucinations chose to hitch a ride along
 Calling me names I've never heard
 Speaking in unknown words
 Telling me why I received the call
 Sometimes we don't feel like myself at all
 Why won't these dreams go away?
 I've got an army of the fallen sent to protect me
 They've tried to lynch me seven times, but I made it out alive
 By the grace of God I somehow survived
 Don't ask so surprised
 I have tried so hard recently and failed
 Oh God, I could use some help
 Your left hand is weak and bruised
 Or maybe he's blown a fuse
 My sane is confused and I view the flailing fall
 Sometimes we don't feel like myself at all
 What have I done?
 What have I become?
 I've made them pay for their sins time and again
 So tonight I will pay for mine
 Or maybe I've seen the light
 Why won't these dreams go away?
 I've got an army of the fallen sent to protect me
 They've tried to lynch me seven times, but I made it out alive
 By the grace of God I somehow survived
 Don't ask so surprised
 Don't act so surprised for me, maybe I've seen the light