Closing Time Waltz

I'm scared to death that I'll live through this
 I've waited patiently for you to wake up choking on last night's dinner
 Been lacing your drinks with drain cleaner
 I wish I had you in my veins and coursing through this corpse you made
 And finding traces of a lonely lost mind or resuscitating all my vital signs
 So, wake me up before last call
 Recurring words heard just before the fall
 Every step, the hill gets steeper, window shopping was so much cheaper
 You're caught and stuck in your own ways
 Strategic plans of being two-faced, between the lines in double-space
 I wish I had you in my gut to winch me out of this rut
 And help me out with a terrible choice
 A screaming heart or a silent voice
 Crowd shuffles to the closing time waltz, I crawl and stumble up and down the hall
 Lose my balance and smack my head against the wall
 Pour your head out and forget it all
 I wish I had you on my lips, I wouldn't be alone getting lit
 Just a bullet point on your laundry list
 Fired from a pistol that broke your wrist
 Just one more, I know it's after last call
 Ease me down, just before I fall
 I wish I had you in my face to jump with me and fall from grace
 We can become mud in the fertile soil, leaving futile blood that begins to boil
 Relive the dreams, nightmares and all
 Blasphemous tongue and broken jaw
 The heart that beats inside your wall
 The time that dies as you stall
 For eternities between last call
 And summer days that always end in fall